I survived!! And not a moment too soon! I was getting ready to collapse soon if I spent any more time in that practice room. There were a few times where I felt that if I had fallen asleep, I may not have awoke again.
For those of you wondering what the hell I’m talking about, I performed my senior recital one week ago tonight. And yes, it has taken me a week to realize where I am. Every day this last week has been a lot like waking up in some place where you have no memory of how you arrived. It is the strangest feeling in the world. The past few months so many people have been saying to me, “You need to get out more”, and now I realize why. It will be nice to return to my old self again.
I have never been so excited about how much time there actually is in a day!! I may as well have been living on Mercury the past 3 years!! My days have revolved so much around the very intense task of practicing and making beautiful music, that I have spent little time doing much else. Not because there aren’t enough hours in a day, but because I spent most of my free time trying to recover from the physical exhaustion. On Mercury, the days are only 10 earth hours so I would be forced to relax sooner. Don’t want to wear a gas mask though. Needless to say, the recovery became less and less with each passing day, even with the full 24 hours.
Now, I have no idea what to do with all the time I have! It’s amazing how much time there is when you’re not spending half of it beating yourself up physically and mentally, and the other half trying to recover from it. The contrast in the past week has been a huge eye-opener for me, and I have realized truly how little worry and conflict I want in my life.
This is the perfect precursor to my trip to Tahiti, for which I leave in a week. This will be my first exercise in having little worry and conflict.
I also look forward to seeing all of YOU again in the coming months, and actually be able to be myself and coherent at the same time. I apologize profusely for the past few years. In the words of the “not dead” guy from that Monty Python movie….. “I’m getting better!!”
It’s great to be back again!